From the too early to ask but wanting to know
to the shared wanting to the trying to the monthly red stain no.
From the blood tests and food shifts
to the caffeine withdrawal and supplements
from the trying some more to the relief and amazement
to the dancing in the living room joy.
From the tired to the queasy to the secret until
safe to tell for the congratulations.
From the swelling to the scans the nervous to the healthy
other parents’ stories from the horror to the perfect.
From the haemorrhoids that passed to the ones that bled
through maternity dress on the morning train.
From the slow slow walk to the tired tired tired
from the phone scroll waiting to the waters breaking
from the induction to the horse breath waves
of squeeze and release to the remember your horse breath
the pushing and crying the holding and feeding
from the crying and the crying and crying.
From the leaking to the feeding the pooping the leaking
the waking and waking to the crying some more.
From the pain to the fever hot red rocks of infection
to the antibiotics to the happening again.
From the lockdowns the masks to the walks but not sitting
the curfews the radius the zooming the slowing down.
From the packing and moving to the solving and solving
from the sickness to the steps to new words and daycare.
From the washing to the laundry the soaking and drying
to the nappies the laundry the food on the floor.
From the potty to the wetting the frustration the refusing
from the anxiety to the getting it but the anxiety still there.
From the wanting only mummy to the not wanting mummy
from the going back to work to the never having time.
From the wanting again to the saying it out loud
from the positive test to the covid positive test
from the scans to the appointments, the explaining
the announcement to the excitement
the exhaustion at the thought
of the crying the waking the leaking ahead.
From the nausea to the magnesium to the virus again
to the tired the tired the tired…
From the meltdowns to the accidents the shouting and biting
too tired for games too big now to hide build forts carry run.
From the wait wait wait to the sudden gut punch and gush
from the rush to the shout to the boy.
From the coming home to the blurry
to the cuddles and recovery.
From the sweetness to the adjustment the struggling to adjust
from the meltdowns to the sleep
Oh the sleep.
From the feeding to the social not wanting to miss this time
from the things being open to the please keep being open.
From the trips to the flights the long long haul
from the family to the home again to the growing and growing.
From the jet lag to the waking winter setting in
from the sleep coming back the good sleeper is back.
From the real estate agents to the doctors
to being blindsided by news
from this thing to the next thing and the next carry on.