Here’s a little snippety-bit of a scene I wrote this morning, from a larger work-in-progress called Dear Billy… This scene is set in 1996.
Harriet’s dancing self-consciously in the kitchen, still with bottle in hand and white dress looking only slightly worse for wear. Mark catches me watching him watch her and smiles, but only with his mouth. He pushes himself up from his doorway lean and moves over to me.
‘How are you still so compos mentis while your friends are completely wasted?’
‘Who said I was compos mentis?’ I’m not entirely sure what it means, but it doesn’t sound like how I’m feeling right now. The room is spinning gently and I’ve been standing at the kitchen bench gorging on corn chips like an animal.
‘You look very together. You can hold your booze.’ I can’t tell if it’s admiration or accusation as he looks me up and down.
‘I haven’t had that much to drink,’ I lie.
Mark leans across the bench towards me, which forces me to lean in too, his warm whispery breath is on my cheek and I close my eyes. The room spins more predictably now. Like I’ve tuned into the rhythm of it and it kind of makes sense. His voice is soft and low.
‘Most of the people here are morons, Sam Knox. Killing off their brain cells and flailing around.’
I smile, but keep my eyes closed, keep still. His breath smells boozey and smokey. He uses words no one else does.
‘I’m not saying I’m any better than any of them, Sam, but you probably are. You look like someone with better things to do.’
I open my eyes and shake my head, ‘No, no I’m having fun. It’s a good party.’
Mark grins at my protest, ‘you don’t have to be polite. Parties can be stupid. Wanna go for a walk?’
Outside I think about the cuddly jersey lying on the floor of my room. At least I have stockings on, but my skirt is short and jacket open.
‘Love the Soundgarden t-shirt, by the way.’ Mark says this without looking at me but puts his arm out just in time for me to grab as my shoe fails beneath me.
Ant gave me the t-shirt for our four month anniversary, but something stops me from adding that piece of information. I mean it would be the perfect opportunity to mention my boyfriend. I let go of his arm.
‘Maybe walking wasn’t the best idea.’ He looks at me now. There’s that slightly creepy edge again and I wonder if it’s actually just how he smiles. ‘Those are very high shoes.’
It’s true, but his noticing makes me feel silly and girly. Who am I tonight anyway?
At the end of the street is a small park. There’s something invigorating about the cold air and starless night. Mark holds the end of a see-saw down for me and I get on, hitching my skirt high without even thinking about it. He gets on the other end and slowly bends his knees to lift and lower me. My feet don’t quite touch the ground when I’m in the air and that moment of lost control makes my stomach flip a bit.
‘So what’s your life like, Sam Knox?’ Up.
‘My life?’ Down.
‘Yeah, your life. Is it good, bad, has life been kind so far?’
I give it a moment’s thought as my legs dangle. How can I even be the judge of that?
‘I guess life’s been kind. I mean my dad’s a jerk, but he hasn’t come round in a while. My mum’s cool and my brother’s super smart.’
‘Ah family eh. What about you though? Who are you?’
‘Ha I’m Sam Knox!’ It comes out louder than I mean it to and I quickly cover my mouth with my hand, losing balance on my end for a moment.
‘Woah! Are you okay?’ Mark asks but simultaneously jolts the see-saw. I squeal and grab on tight. He jolts again and my heart starts to pound.
‘Wait stop!’ He doesn’t. ‘Stop! I said stop!’
‘Okay sorry, sorry.’ He straightens his legs so he’s at the top and I’m on the ground catching my breath. ‘You’re okay?’
I quickly clamber to my feet before he can move us again. My end of the see-saw rises and Mark ends up on the ground.
‘I’m okay.’ I look beyond him to the dark tree shapes, their leafy tops flailing gently.
‘Sam Knox.’ He says. ‘You’re Sam Knox.’ When I look at him he’s smiling, eyes and all. I almost smile back.
4 thoughts on “See-saw”
“The room spins more predictably now. Like I’ve tuned into the rhythm of it and it kind of makes sense”
The line amazing.
Thanks! I’m glad you like it 🙂
Oh I loved it.